I DISCOVERED SELF-LOVE THE HARD WAY

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I FELL INLOVE & MY HEART WAS SHATTERED INTO PIECES BEFORE I FINALLY DECIDED TO PICK MYSELF UP AND SLOWLY DISCOVERED SELF-LOVE.

This is my Entry for - THE 43rd EDITION of the LADIES OF HIVE COMMUNITY CONTEST

Today, I decided to muster up my courage to post something really personal that changes me into becoming what I am right now. What convinced me to post my story on what Life lesson I learned the hard way and how did it alter my perception or attitude is this amazing community @ladiesofhive . My sister @jongcl and @eeventuree have posted their entry for this amazing contest already answering the question about trying something new but for my case I'd go with the number two question.

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Are you ready to listen to my story? Here it goes. Once upon a time, I used to be the kind of woman who gives her all. I fall in love really hard to the point that I already forgot to love myself. I met someone so many years ago, I have given my all that it came to a point that I questioned my existence here on earth.

I was being cheated and I always gives in whenever he says sorry but then it happens over and over again.

And then, I got pregnant. I am willing to forget everything and start a new but then he never changes at all. My pregnancy was unhealthy. I was stressed out and cried almost every night.

I almost got married to him because he got me pregnant. And then the most heart-breaking thing happened, I lost my baby. When I went to the OB, there was no heartbeat anymore. I felt that the world had literally collapsed right in front of me.

It was unbearable. I wanted to just disappear on earth. I had so many thoughts about giving up on life because it was too much to handle. Yet, he tricked me that he was there for me and I got fooled.

Few months have passed, his promise to marry me didn't happen. My parents were hurting already, I know. Every time they asked me about our plan to settle down, I am hurting deep inside because I know it will never happen. Pain wakes me up, I know I have to let go of that person no matter what. I decided to have a firm decision to never take him back. He was so frustrated that he always shows up in my workplace to ask for one last chance but I never gave in.

I decided to never gives in even if my heart still wants him back. I needed to be strong and I'm so happy that I was surrounded with a loving family who's there for me when I was hurting.

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I finally let that toxic love go. Every time I'm reminded of that decision I couldn't help but to be proud of myself. I slowly practice the art of loving myself more. I began searching for things that I wanted to do without relying to someone. Then I found blogging! I poured myself to writing about my passion in fashion and about love advices. And I finally found myself genuinely HAPPY.

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Upon letting go of that love, I began to realized that life is beautiful. I received so much love with the people around me. I also found a community back on my old platform about inspiring one another and it's called GIG (GIRLS INSPIRED GROUP). That step changes me to becoming a better version of me. Of course, I didn't gave up on love but I always make sure that I am not giving my all. I learned that whenever you love yourself it actually attracts more people to even love you the way you deserved to be loved.

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Now, I am still single but a mom of a very beautiful girl. My journey as a single mom was also shared here on the platform called "DIARY OF A SINGLE MOM".

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To my fellow ladies out there! If you also have a story to share and wanted to inspire other ladies here on Hive, feel free to join the contest too! My friend @simpledemple , you might want to join? Don't forget that your story can become an inspiration to other ladies not just in this platform but across the Globe.

Have a great day ahead! See you on my next post? Adios!